Hey friends, I just wanted to provide an update regarding my last super long, super complain-y post. Some of you have asked how I’m doing and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your concern and love.
I’m doing better than I was a couple of weeks ago. I reduced the medication that was giving me terrible side effects (involuntary shaking, inability to sit still, trouble sleeping, etc.) and increased the medication I was initially trying to reduce. I’m going to try to remain on a combination of both medications (Latuda and Seroquel), which keeps me mostly stable while not sedating me too much. However, my insurance might not allow this given that the medications are in the same category and you’re not supposed to take two at the same time.
My NP suggested that I try Lithium. I really don’t want to do this, since I haven’t heard great things about it and it requires close monitoring of my kidneys and thyroid. I may end up going back to just taking Seroquel if my insurance won’t let me take both. I’ve been on it for a long time and I can deal with its less pleasant side effects (weight gain and sedation).
I’m tired of the long, awful process of transitioning to a new medication that might not even be right for me. I’m totally guilty of trying to seek out a “miracle drug” that will make all of my depression and anxiety symptoms magically disappear. I know this is wrong. I know in my heart of hearts that I have work to do that I don’t want to do and there are some things I just need to saddle up and deal with.
I inquired about therapy again at the place where I see my NP, and still haven’t been able to get in with anyone. I will keep trying. Once again, thank you for your support and I’m sorry if I sound uber-complain-y when others have much bigger problems to deal with than I do. I couldn’t ask for better friends and family.